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deep

So it has been a while.. The thing is the stuff I write about just ends up being deep. Not on purpose. I just don't have kids to tell funny stories about! But for the sake of the blog and the friends who ask me about it (you know who you are :) here ya go. 

At the moment life is pretty quiet. I am still plugging away at CBN as a producer. Recently, I had the opportunity to go to Alabama and visit a ministry called the Basement. It rocked me because I have been asking the Lord for years to do what they are doing. I was so blessed to see that God is moving in my generation. At the same time it made me want to drop everything and go be a part of it. It re-surfaced all my questions of purpose and destiny. None of which I have any answers for. I know that we are able to step out and do things but I just don't feel like I know what that is yet. I know the question is always evolving but I am hoping He will bring some answers soon. I feel as if I am in a perpetual state of limbo. So there ya go.. my deep blog. 

Jesus saves the day....

Hey Ya'll!

If anyone sees this I wanted to let you know that I have a friend's story that is going to be airing on the 700 Club this coming Tuesday, June 2nd. It will air on ABC Family at 10am and 11pm. You can also check out local listings at cbn.com.

His name is Mike, he's 27 and Jesus really did change his life! He grew up in a Christian home but got in with the wrong crowd. His journey takes him from the streets to the marine corp, back to the streets and finally to Jesus. Mike's story will inspire you to believe for yourself and for your friends that God's power is able to save. After all being holy isn't so much about me making myself holy as it is Jesus saving the day and creating me into that person of holiness.

Check it out!!

Myrrh

THE Pursuit....

Recently I made a new friend through an interview that I did for work. Throughout our conversation she talked about her life and the healing that she has experienced. She described her healing as the evidence of His (God's) pursuit of her life. Every time I've heard that statement since then it has resonated within my spirit. I don't have a lot of experience in the area of men and the pursuit. That's not a negative. The Lord just has to help make it clear. But the Lord has been reminding me of how much He has pursued my life. God's pursuit of us is always with the intention to bear fruit. He's a Kingdom God so His pursuit of us is never ending and it knows no bounds. I think that because we live in a natural world full of brokeness it is easy to feel forgotten. I know sooo many amazing single women that no man is pursuing. It's easy to slide into not feeling worthy of being pursued. But even if a gem is hidden/not pursued, it doesn't make it any less of a gem. It's all about learning to live in the pleasure of a God that is always completely satisfied with His love towards us. It is so comforting to know that His pursuit of me doesn't get old but that He rejoices in me moment by moment. I love the verse in Zeph 3:17, "The Lord your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." I am so thankful that His love over me is strong and that He is able to understand my weak emotions and gives me His strength to live my life. Truly we all have in some way felt the evidence of God's pursuit over our lives. What is yours?

Garage Band has just changed my life forever!!!

Isn't it crazy how the one thing you need could be right under your nose and you've never known it??!! For instance, I sing and play piano. I'm not amazing but as I continue to spend time with God I am writing more and more songs. Well I've been calling my voicemail and leaving myself messages with the melodies and words so I wouldn't forget them. In fact many songs have reached their "This message will be saved for 40 days.." more than a few times. I was going to by some sort of digital recorder when my brother showed me how to work garage band!! Who knew that it was so stinkin' simple!! So now I have songs that I've recorded the piano and vocals for. All in one night! I am so excited at the possibilities. It's also really humbling because when I hear myself I don't think I sound that great. But because I love Jesus He somehow uses it anyway. I have been wanting to record for months.....today is the day that God revealed what has been in my life for 3 years already!! 

Production Companies

I'm in a class where one of the projects is to come up with a production company. That would be great if I knew what i wanted to do. Instead I have been staring at the computer trying to imagine where I will be in 10 years within the media world. I don't have a clue. I'm beginning to think this whole school thing is more frustrating than helpful. 

MODULAR WEEK

 I've been done with school for a couple years. I graduated in 2005 with no intentions of ever going back. But then again I never had any idea I would be working in TV either...and here I am. So last week was my first long week of classes. We're talking mon-fri; 9-5 baby! It's only meant for the strong. :) That's what I told myself to get through it. In and of itself it was a great class. I learned a lot. I have no idea what the purpose of this knowledge is for but for some reason God wants me here.  Could it be to meet a man??!! Not likely but if that is my story I will not turn it down. I'm feeling the need for a little motivation considering the fact that I feel like I am completely back to square one in life. I was in school for 25 years straight and now I'm back after only a short time. I don't know if this blog stuff is good...too much confession :)

I'm Here

This is my first one..I'm being a follower at this point. It really is nice being able to read and catch up on people's lives through this venue though. So as of right now i just finished my first draft of my first long paper being back in school. I am pretty tired. I just finished hosting a valentine's day banquet that took everything out of me. So honestly it is a miracle that i was able to make sense of the ramblings in my head. Life is good, just really busy.